The Ego and Overeating

Today I am quite tired after a long week of work.  Also on Sunday, instead of resting from the week, we went out to feed the homeless.  I am so glad we did as it really does the heart good, not to mention of course doing some small gesture to help or give someone something even for a brief moment, but still and all, it takes a lot out of you, especially with the low temperatures we have been having.

I have been listening and reading Eckhart Tolle again, as well as Wayne Dyer and several others, but listening to Tolle always effects me on the deepest level.  I have been paying attention to staying within the now and witnessing my thoughts.  It has had an amazing effect upon me, and I think also with me dieting in a healthy way, I am effected even more.

Today I heard Tolle talk about that the ego just wants more and more, and in the case of a food addict, in reality it is just feeding the ego as nothing will ever sate the person.  He is not eating due to hunger what so ever, only feeding the insatiable appetite of the ego that just wants more and more of everything.  If a person pays attention to the body and respects the physical form which God has provided, we would realize and be aware that we really don't need much to sustain us and actually thrive with more energy on less.  Over eating is only feeding an overblown, whether the person feels superior or inferior.

Anyway, I am trying to pay attention to my needs and not my desires.  I think I am doing well.  I am not loosing as quickly as I did prior to Christmas, but I have lost 3 pounds since I started back on the second of January.  I am going to take a break off of it this weekend, but since I have lost as much this time, I will get back on it Tuesday morning of next week.  I am off work Saturday, Sunday, & Monday so I am going to treat myself (just a little).

All in all, I feel good about myself and my progress.  Vito has been dieting, but he gets very grumpy and now today he is talking about McDonald's and really bad choices.  I know he is getting ready to blow as he has no real self control with food.  He will do good for a little while and then binge.  It's a pattern that I have watched repeatedly and I was hoping he would get real about health, but I listened to him tonight and I fear he will blow it.  Everyone is responsible for only themselves.  I wish him good health and wish he cared more for himself and me, but I don't think he does.

TIP:  Being truly grateful for our food and paying attention to every bite, makes us experience eating as a ritual with conscience and presents of mind, so it is easier to stop and not abuse what God provided.